Frustration!

I am so frustrated right now! UGH! There is no other way to say it besides UGH! I can't sleep, I hardly ever eat, and I seriously think my brain is smoking. Plus on top of that I have a serious case of writers block. The ideas are there but I have no clue how to put them on paper. I feel like all I want to do is run into a dar, dark sorner and hide. My sarcastic ability to laugh everything off is seriously failing me at this moment. I don't know what else to do.I know that I have always been wound to tightly, but if I wind my self up anymore, I think that I am going to go insane. Insanity sounds nice right now; just to check out mentally with no care in the world. I have four papers within the matter of two weeks and two exams on the same day. In June 2009 when I was handed my diploma, I wish someone would have said: "Enjoy college kid, because it will drive you to drink."


In the midst of all these negatives I do have some bright news.
I have an A in my polisci class and I got a B+ on my english paper. The B+ kind of brings me back to my frustration though....WHAT IN THE HELL AM I DOING WRONG IN COMPOSITION THEN??????UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm done ranting for the moment. I think that I will go lock myself in a padded cell right now. or jump from something really high up...like the Empire State building or the Efifel Tower...*remeber sarcasm people*

Analysis of FDR's Four Freedoms

FDR's speech was very well articulated and written, but the opening was a bit confusing and too broad. His main point in this speech was to deter American's from denying the war on the basis of our values and freedoms, yet he started the speech by talking about the rise of America from the Revoultionary War. I undersand the connection he was drawing, but felt a bit put off by the length it took him to reach his thesis. His thesis was, that as long as Americans stand idle on the subject of entering the war, they would be endanger of loosing liberty and freedom; the more democratic nations that fall to tyranny, the more in jeopardy we are in loosing all that we have come to know. The thesis was a good, because it left room for debate. In his speech FDR managed to convey his thesis very well with evidence, but at some point the evidence becomes unclear in the relation to his thesis. The reader begans to hear about war costs and medical care, in which I have to question where his focus is. The speech does a very well job at articulating why Americans should help the war effort, but at times it becomes to wordy. The reader or listener, in this casse Congress, must question what point he is getting at. The end of the speech, however, does manage to pull the entire thought process together.

Universal Lessons of the Holocaust

"There are no words", as Elie Wiesel said, to use to speak upon the Holocaust. There is no way to describe it besides saying destruction. Sure we have been taught about it since we were in grade school, but do we truly understand. We read the words that come from the people who lived it and we hear their words, but what are we doing with their testimonies. We are simply shelving them into our thoughts, acknowledging what took place and leaving it at that. Sure a few of us will venture over to Europe to see these terrors first hand, feeling as if we have done something significant, but what have we truly done. Some of us (no one at all in particular this is just an analogy) will get right back on our plane for our flight at home and watch the arabic person getting on the flight, the whole time. I think that this is the point Elie was grasping at, we will never change until we become the change we want to see. We can not look to the outside world for change within ourselves.



We may acknowledge and feel pity for those who were dealt this ordeal, but at the end of the day, this horrendous assault on a nationality of people, will be an after thought for us. We will go home to our cushioned lives, our laptops, and our families and put these thoughts out of our mind. These thoughts how ever should be the first things in our minds when we go home at night. We should walk into our houses at night and be greatful for what we have, for the saftey of our lives, and for our freedom. Although, the Holocaust was meant as a way to annihilate a race, it was also a lesson in human indignation.



Forgetting, for the survivors, is not an option; for us however it is easy. I am amazed by how those individuals, who expirenced what they went through had the abiltity to speak. I can't fathom being able to speak upon something such as this from a first hand expirence. I must agree with Elie, "where is the rage." I think that the rage is in the writting. The writting may not be written with the intention of rage, but the rage is present. This is their way of screaming out without breaking their composure.



History is madness. Humans hurt one another more than we heal. We wil never understand. We can't it is not a possible action. All we can do is better...

Midterm Evaluation

When I first entered this course I was a bit arrogant as a writer. I knew my writing needing improvement, but I was pompous in believing that my writting was okay. This class has changed my thought process on the subject of writting. In high school writting is not necessarily a joke,
(but come on now a five paragraph essay with generalizations...who does that) but there is no substance to it. You reiterate what you already have been told and that is where my arrogance came in. This class has managed to change my view on the subject of writting.


Things I have enjoyed...
1.The Book Thief
2.Charlie Meyers
3.Class discussions and quick writes


Things I think we need more of...
1.Focus more on the technical aspects of writting
2.More quick writes...(I know sorry guys...)
3.We should do more with our writting analytically book in class



Right now I have short term memory loss...so I will be updating this later....
I am very happy with my Comp class and I highly enjoy your work Professor Stewart!

Thats so random...

Uh thats like so random...
10 random things that I just know...


1.In China, watermelons are grown in boxes so that they are stackable.

2.An ostrich's eyeball is bigger than its brain.

3.Madonna's real name is Madonna.

4.Berry Gordy, the founder of Motown, was an assembly line worker at Fords.

5.J.K Rowling was once on welfare.

6.It took Susan Lucci 22 tries and almost thirty years to win a daytime Emmy.

7.Whitney Houston is cousin to Dionne Warwick

8.Stevie Wonder is a Michigan native.

9.Marvin Gaye was the last person to touch the piano that still resides at Hittsville USA, no one has touched it since.

10.I know someone that can lick their elbow.

Rocking my ipod at the moment..

Okay, so lately I have had a few certain songs playing relentlessly on my I-pod. I am not really a big fan of mainstream music, but these songs have me singing along. I usually tend to listen to old school anything. My favorite old school groves are Al Green, Marvin Gaye, Janis Joplin, Jim Morrison, Prince, and a few more I can't think of right now. Right now however I have these songs stuck on repeat in my head...

1.Empire State of Mind-Jay Z and Alicia Keys.
I absolutley love this song! I really want to go to New York right now.

2.Forever-Eminem, Lil Wayne, Drake, Kanye West.
I am not a rap fan at all!!! I think that it is often degrading and vile. This song however is catchy and I can relate with the lyrics.

3.You belong with Me-Taylor Swift
I am such a huge taylor Swift buff. My twelve year old cousin introduced us last year. I think that this girl is amazingly talented and I love the song.

4.Iris-Goo Goo Dolls
This song takes my breath away every time. It is amazingly beautiful.

5.Ignorance-Paramore
I love Paramore. They are one of my favorite bands. I love alternative music and this song is so dead on right! If any one doesn't know who Paramore is you are seriously lost!!!

Today's class

I absolutley LOVED today's class. I really enjoyed learning about film and how to analyze it. I never really thought about what choices we make sub-consciously about movies. I am really intrested to learn more about film and directing. I even find myself now watching TV and analyzing angle shots and lighting...lol. I can't wait to learn more about visual literacy!!!!!

From Liesel to Rudy...

My mouth barely moves,
Sometimes I seem so confused,
My mind is in a race,
My hearts in a daze,

When you smile at me,
Often, I go weak at the knees
I refuse to tell you,
How much I need you,



When we are together,
There is no place better,
All your teasing and taunts,
Only fuel my wants...



But still i refuse
My feelings for you,
Of course when you walk by,
i'll still roll my eyes


Then gaze at your lemon hair,

trying my hardest not to stare
Then smile as you walk away,
Knowing how you have just made my day...







This is just a small snippet of how I view Rudy and Liesl's relationship. They are so in love with one another, yet they won't say it. I just think that it is so sweet.

Actions v. Words

Okay we have all heard the saying "Actions speak louder than words" but is this statment true? In reading The Book Thief we have learned that words are the cornerstone and catalyst for human action. So if words are the catalyst, do actions speak louder? Does doing something versuses saying something make the outcome anymore valuable.
Hitler was able to manipulate a nation into geniocide with words, but is it what that nation did with those words that counts more?

Just a small thought...

Taxes, Death and Trouble...Just a small rant...

In the words of Marvin Gaye only three things in life are guaranteed....
1.Taxes
2.Death
3.Trouble....

Are these truly the only things in life that we are guarenteed?

What about free will? Does the Bible not say that as humans we have free will.
What about love? Isn't everyone loved at some point.

What about freedom?

What is freedom?

Are we truly free?

Janis Joplin once said that freedom is nothing left to loose (Janis Joplin-Bobby McGee 1968)
Would the Jews from the Holocaust agree with this assumption. They had nothing left to loose.